A January day that lives forever

In my mind —
      I’ve tried a million
      times to go back
      to that day —
tried to change
      my choices
begged a do-over
      from the universe
I’ve crippled myself with
      guilt
      sorrow
thrashing the quicksand
      sinking in
      layers of grief
fighting a sticky web
      trapped in
      regret-regret-regret
I don’t even care about
      my own
      broken heart
I’m sorry
      I broke yours

Terri Guillemets

Edwin Markham with book

a thinking eye
but jolly cheek
a furrowed brow
but kindly stance;
the hair of a hippie
and student & master—
the burden of life
and love of wife—but
something perpetually
unsettled within him;
button-up coat over
raw, naked soul—
a book in his hand
and ten in his pen

Edwin Markham portrait from Gates of Paradise

Terri Guillemets
unedited freewriting experiment, inspired by the “barbaric yawp” scene from Dead Poets Society

Edwin Markham profile

hair like roaming waves of the sea
eyes reflecting the light of heaven—
studious, compassionate, soulful—
pythagorean shiny nose
laugh lines loved into place
a beard that let the cat in
face aglow with manly health,
honesty and freedom

Edwin Markham portrait from The Man with the Hoe with Notes by the Author

Terri Guillemets
unedited freewriting experiment, inspired by the “barbaric yawp” scene from Dead Poets Society