The death of a loved one is a sudden silence — one of those deafening silences that leaves ringing in
-all posts-
Dark thoughts
how the nighttime looks
during a power outage
is how night should look
Zzzzzhakespeare
reading in my cozy bed, ridiculously late
words begin to slur and rhymes, to blear
my eyelids fight me — like a heavyweight
goodnight, sweet sleepy zzzzzhakespeare
Balancing act
Ease your sweet heart
Mother dear —
You worry about me
because I write sad poems —
But I promise you:
I am okay —
Writing purges my frustrations
and vents my steam
the pen is my psychiatrist
and ink my medicine —
When life feels off-balance
back to the writing board I go
I do not hide but seek
my emotions in words
and blot them on the paper
which blots it all out of my soul —
You see sad words, but to me
all my poems are happy
because creating them heals me —
Guaranteed, and believe me
because I love you so:
your daughter is just fine —
If ever I stop writing poems
that is when you should worry.
Renewal
sorry, no autumn this year —
earth didn’t pay the subscription fee
after the free trial of summer ended
Resilient
The best faith is not the stagnant,
Vital
You are as important to your health as it is to you.
Beary much
There’s nothing like a mama-hug.
Weariest old work horse
“A horse loves freedom, and the weariest old work horse will roll on the ground or break into a lumbering gallop when he is turned loose in the open.”
—Gerald Raftery (1905–1986), Snow Cloud, 1951
Delusions & cliffs
paths of long-term security
dead-end without notice
in the mercurial maze of life
Flight path
I look out my office window
working too late, again
The half-moon is round
with a glowing halo —
I know it’s pollution but
my heart sees fairy dust
or the happily ever after
romance of a bedtime story
And next to the bright moon
with its fringe of murky light
soars a large airplane
with its lights flashing
and I can hear its engine
even with my windows closed
(it’s hot outside, otherwise —
you know darn well —
I would open them!)
The plane’s lights —
red, green, white orbs
of unsightly technological safety —
are ruining the beautiful night sky
and distracting me from
my dusty fairy-tale moon
Yet maybe
at last
I realize
what’s been
obscuring
my poetic vision
I always seem to focus
on that beautiful moon
and the romantic dark sky
but ignore the 737 monstrous
hunk of metallic civilization
hurling itself through the night,
followed by a second aircraft
and then a third and fourth,
as if the airport is shooing
all her noisy little children
out of the house to play —
And even though that airplane
is hideous and loud
and aerial anti-serenity —
it’s life.
And what is poetry —
if not life?
Perhaps it carries
newlywed lovers
who were finally married
after COVID cancellations,
leaving on the honeymoon
they saved up years for —
and in that plane
is just as much fairy tale
as that beautiful-ugly
dust veiling the moon.
Grief mends
Grief is a burden
but also a friend—
It is not grief that
wounds your heart
but it is grief that
heals your heart.