believing my wings were fragile and fractured
in my formidable forties, i abandoned
approaching fifty, i know my wings are strong
they just cannot lift so many heavy
-all posts-
Accelerant
our apocalypse
once in ultra slow motion
now on fast forward
My heart
God completed my heart
then you finished it —
mortal combat style
Sugar shock
my willpower has become
a fraction of what it was—
my sweet tooth is now
much greater than my resolve—
and the laboratory reports
that my blood glucose
no longer measures in
milligrams per deciliter—
but in sugar cubes squared
A turn for the better
October has finally broken its scorching summer fever
turning the hesitant desert autumn into a true believer!
Well-becoming
Wellness is the art of healing before you’re sick.
Stop to smell the goodness
Life. — Enjoy whatever flowers come with the manure.
Tired of trying
Even the sun can’t shine on an entire world at once.
March Night
I shook off the house like a hooded cape,
And came out, free, into the March-blown street…
At a lash of the gale, at a sight of the cloud-tattered skies,
As a coat discarded,
I shook off civilization
And became wild,
And my naked soul raced the clouds,
And the flavor of the Earth was fresh and primitive…
—James Oppenheim (1882–1932), “March Night,” War and Laughter, 1916
Capriccio
you & i are animal lust
spirit and human emotion
entangled in wild passion
you always touch my heart first
but still find every last place
breaths rise, sweat falls
mine, yours, who knows
bodies wise, minds numb
wills weak, feelings, reveal
speak easy, softly, love
at the tips of our tongues
whisper nothings, give everything
our lips link each other’s souls
with kisses blind, rough and kind
fierce fervor, fever, fire, hot desire
flesh burning, hungering, yearning
begging, seeking, pleasing, please
prey of your hands and at my knees
inhale, exhale, scents, intense
assent, consent, relent, unpent
sweet chords, rhythm, rhapsody
harmony, symphony, crescendo
Mind own secrets
Frustration is nothing more than letting your own mind bully you.
Alarm ringing true
There was time —
I know there was —
saw it spread out
all ahead of me,
a beautiful infinity —
immortal fresh-faced
clock of opportunity —
numberless, handless
no ticks & no tocks
save for the sound
of distant decades
too quiet to really hear —
but at forty-eight years
a sudden gear-grinding
cacophony, the outspread
blanket of eternity
has begun to suffocate,
wrapped around me
limiting my agility
darkening my path —
I’m having trouble
breathing, I no longer
see that clock open
or free, its movements
now deafen me, its hands
tear into my flesh and
grip tight my throat —
I am choking on
second thoughts
at this midlife hour
this day of reckoning
Chillin’
winter morning chills
still, birds gather by water
and take the cold plunge